Back to Blogging for awhile.

I have not done one of these in a long while; I do not know why I guess I was rather drained. I guess you can say that deep inside I did not feel like writing I have not written a new joke in three months; I have not performed in awhile either. I cannot say I am happy I really do not believe in happiness. The Human race is truly happy when we see another suffer, that is why we love to watch celebrities suffer. We love that people with millions get there shit handed to them.

We pretend we are happy, because we have a stupid job that pays just above minimum wage, because chicks suck our dicks, because our wife lost 20 pounds, because our retarded kids did well on a math test. Those things do not truly make us happy; it makes us have that feeling. Is this it? My life, is this all it is? Living in a shit town with shit parents and a piece of shit boyfriend or girlfriend.

I have seen the light many times I failed many times and I still stand not because I want to but because I have to, I have to make sure I am the man needed to be to do great things. I care for others more then I should, helping giving advice loving. Yet I see no end sight for my journey I only see more user's abusers liars and pathetic humans that think it all is a game. Life is not a game; it is a tragic place full of demons hatred and anger. There is no devil that lives in hell that breathes fire that has a fork. We are the devil, we kill, we molest, we lie, we cheat, we are the devils the bible spoke about Hell is EARTH!

Have you ever sat down and just thought of life so hard that it makes the pit of your soul sick. That you wish for happiness that may never come, that you pray to God for a great future. Have you ever wanted to be cared for have a nation of people love you. I wake up every day and I think about myself, I think about what is needed from me to gain what I dream. If people knew I would be great they would not dare fuck me over or treat me as if I am an Aids patient. Yet they do not know we do not have a crystal ball, so I am disrespected "he will not make it no need to worry about D'Andre. No need to give a shit."

The Meek will inherit the earth.

My favorite saying because I think of it as God telling me to keep steady you will survive you will have it all. I give and I do not ask for a lot in return, I just want respect and someone that cares for me as I care for them. It probably is a long time away from that, considering the kind of man I am. I think of comedy, I think of life, and I think of friends long gone loves that are not here anymore. I think of the people in the world that do not know how great they have it.

I am here to do great things and that means I have to have a shitty life, no friends, no lovers, not much family, just me alone. I will be alone for a long long time it is just how it is. People think they can get better than me, fuck Siggers I know a dude down the street that is better for me. Fuck Siggers, I know a comedian that is funnier than he is. That is okay, keep saying what I am not and you will forget what I am.

I am tired of ignorance, staidness, foolishness, lying people that think it is fun to make people feel a certain way. You will learn just as I learned. I can stand up tall and say I tried and I will keep trying, and when I get to the point in my life where I want to be I will look down on you and say "it is okay." I understand, you were not ready to accept me it is your fault, your ignorance, your ignorant feeble-minded stupid self. Thank you for not accepting me for who I am because now I can accept myself and do what I must for myself. I am better than you are, I am greater than you are and I love myself.

So keep living your life, keep saying fuck this fuck that. Keep picking others over another good person. keep forgetting where you came from, keep picking favorites. And I will keep on moving, I will crack the code to life and live in happiness true happiness if there is even a true happiness. I will find out the secret alone if you do not stand beside me with me for me then I will do it on my own.

However, remember you had your chances. You all had your chances to become greater than what you are. It is easy to look at my faults, but you refuse to look at who I am and who I will become. Trust me I am going to be doing big things.

Then you, your friends, and your family can all say to each other, god damn how stupid was I to treat him like that. Not because I am rich, because I am a comedian or none of that but because I have a big heart and you fucked up a good person that would have done nothing but put a smile on your face.